Updated: May 12
This month we’re talking about nostalgia, which is described as a “sentimental longing or wistful affection for the past.” I have been filled with nostalgia more and more these days as I remember the wishes and desires in my childhood. I spent most of my free time as a kid reading and writing all of my old fanfictions in composition notebooks by hand, dreaming of the day I would get a laptop. Luckily for me, I did get a computer for Christmas and didn’t develop carpal tunnel, although writing stories longhand now has a certain charm.
Sometimes, the nostalgia comes from wanting to be a child again. Life was a bit rocky for me when I was younger but somehow more certain than life is now. Things used to be so simple, sure, but we have to remember it is a blessing to grow old. Some of us didn’t make it this far.
Let your nostalgia be a way of acknowledging and missing the past, but don’t forget to look to the future. Future You may feel nostalgic about this moment! Enjoy being here now.
8 of Pentacles: gathering your wit
7 of Wands: incoming victory
This card pull feels a bit strange. Have you been having relationship issues? It seems like they’re coming to a head in May. I think that some communication is needed. There may have been a misunderstanding, which is adding to the confusion. Perhaps something has been pulling you away from your beloved. This would explain the emotional distance I’m picking up.
Clarifiers: 3 of Cups, High Priestess, 4 of Pentacles, Ace of Swords
If I had to guess, there is a growing sense of mistrust or misgivings between the two of you. Maybe a third person is involved. I suggest that all of you come together to have a mature conversation and clear the air. Maybe your relationship with both parties is evolving, becoming more stable in surprising ways. Don’t let the confusion scare you from a healthy relationship. I think you need to talk it out.
I recommend black obsidian to help bring clarity into your life and pink sapphire to encourage an improvement in communication.
5 of Wands: competition
Wheel of Fortune: new cycle, ending cycle, luck
Hanged Man: waiting
It sounds like you may have submitted an application somewhere or you will soon! This is a big step for you – maybe you’ve finally shaken off feelings of inadequacy or self-doubt. First off, good for you! Remember that a “no” eventually leads to a “yes.” Remain determined and continue to persist.
Clarifiers: King of Pentacles, 9 of Cups, 8 of Pentacles, Knight of Wands
There’s definitely something going on with your career in May. Is this your dream job? The 9 of Cups feels hopeful, and the Knight of Wands feels as if you’re taking in an excited, deep breath, preparing yourself for the work ahead of you. I’m a bit confused as to why the 8 of Pentacles popped up for you here like it did for Aquarius. My best guess is that there may be a few things you need to do before you can apply or accept the job – maybe some life administration stuff. Go back and double-check that you haven’t missed anything. Good luck!
I recommend ametrine to increase focus and resolve, as well as danburite to increase creativity.
6 of Cups: childhood
Ace of Swords: evolving mindset
4 of Wands: stability, creative skills
You may be feeling a push this month to do some inner child healing. What does this mean? For starters, maybe going to restaurants you’ve always wanted to as a kid or re-watching old cartoons. My favorite is Code Lyoko, personally. The 4 of Wands suggests a newfound sense of stability, not necessarily a mental one, but more geared towards your creativity. Did baby you used to draw or paint? Get back to doing that!
Clarifiers: 4 of Swords, 5 of Pentacles, 5 of Cups, 2 of Swords
Something may have blindsided you recently. I feel a sense of loss here – maybe you realized that we’re never going to be children again. This is okay, though, because we can stay young at heart and never truly be old. “You’re only as young as you feel.” Remember that? Maybe your mental health hasn’t been at its best, given the pandemic, financial struggles, burnout, etc. Just remember to take some time out of your day for yourself. Every day without fail. You matter.
I recommend amethyst for better sleep and sunstone to help you attract and retain joy in your life.
Tower: shock, a surprise
10 of Cups: total happiness, long-term commitment
8 of Cups: moving on emotionally
Have any of you endured a painful breakup recently? The energy for the 8 of Cups and Tower feels rather weak, like this may have happened in April, March, or even earlier this year. It feels like now you are finding happiness within yourself and embracing being single. Maybe you’ve picked up old hobbies and started revisiting your friends. Either way, I am happy about the new joy you have found.
Clarifiers: Moon, Ace of Cups, Knight of Swords, Queen of Wands
I am almost certain you’ve survived a tough breakup. However, it also seems like you’re realizing the relationship may not have been as healthy as you originally thought. The Moon card suggests that you weren’t able to see things clearly – perhaps, this person may have been your first love. Stress made the relationship difficult to navigate, and unfortunately, I feel like your beloved was the cause of most of it. Whether I’m right or not, the happiness you’re feeling now is well-deserved. Be sure to take care of yourself as more time passes. It’s okay to still miss them, but know when you’re feeling nostalgic versus staying in the past.
I recommend purple fluorite to help with any emotional distress and garnet to help prevent burnout.
Justice (Reversed): poor decision making, legal trouble
3 of Swords: heartbreak, pain
Star: wish fulfilled
“Careful what you wish for,” is what I hear. I feel like a certain Leo got what they wanted and realized they didn’t want it. Reconsider your point of view on this “mistake.” Maybe it’s not quite so bad. There could be a benefit here that you’re overlooking.
Clarifiers: King of Swords, Queen of Pentacles, Empress, 2 of Wands
Maybe the problem here is that you didn’t plan as far ahead as you need to. The King of Swords suggests legal trouble to me, like Justice, only perhaps you need assistance. I think the Empress is reminding you to evaluate your inventory. As I said before, “Is this quite so bad?” Take good care of yourself in the meantime and give all your decisions related to this stressful situation much more thought. It’s going to be okay.
I recommend black tourmaline and rhodochrosite to help you adjust to lifestyle changes. Black tourmaline will help you stay grounded, ward off any nearby negative energy.
4 of Pentacles: financial stability, mental stability
5 of Swords: vicious competition, conflict, arguments
9 of Cups (Reversed): unhappiness, wanting more from life
You’ve been paralyzed about choosing between two things. It’s been causing you a good deal of grief – maybe you’ve been arguing with the people involved. It feels like everything was somewhat stable before this new question walked into your life. Consider a different choice than the ones presented to you.
Clarifiers: 2 of Swords, Ace of Wands (Reversed), Wheel of Fortune, Empress
We’ve got some repeats from the previous pulls, but they mean something different in this particular combination. This haunting question has the potential to cause a lifestyle change, which is why you can’t make up your mind. I believe it will improve your life, but it’s demanding some hefty sacrifices from you that you aren’t willing to make yet. Give it some more time, if you can. Sleep on it. Weigh the pros and cons before you decide.
I recommend charoite to help cleanse your system and amethyst for better sleep.
Knight of Pentacles: learning a new skill
5 of Pentacles: financial loss
World (Reversed): feeling as if you’re on an island
Is a certain Scorpio dealing with imposter syndrome? Lately, I’ve been saying that if you feel like an imposter, study and learn like you’re trying to “fit in.” This reading is clear as day to me – you feel like you don’t have enough knowledge to be in this field. Maybe the current knowledge you have now feels incomplete or doesn’t seem to count at all. Remember that you have an entire world waiting for you.
Clarifiers: Page of Cups (Reversed), 3 of Cups, Ace of Swords, 3 of Pentacles
The Ace of Swords is appearing for almost everyone so far! I think you need to consider a different approach to getting rid of your imposter syndrome. Sometimes, positive affirmations won’t cut it. Find someone who can mentor you and encourage you. The reversed Page of Cups describes that you are keeping all of your creativity within, too afraid of rejection, failure, or scrutiny to allow anyone to see. I think a mentor or turning to your peers would really help you.
I recommend black tourmaline and sugilite to help you remain and attract optimism.
Knight of Wands (Reversed): creative block, inactivity
King of Cups: emotional stability, heart on your sleeve
8 of Swords: trapped
Pisces, you seem to be in a creative rut. Knight of Wands encourages us forward, but it’s reversed. You’ve talked yourself out of something. I think you should still go for it. Dig within yourself and remember your WHY. Why did you want to do XYZ? What has stopped you from doing it? What obstacles can you work your way around them to accomplish your goals?
Clarifiers: Ace of Cups (Reversed), 6 of Cups, 4 of Pentacles (Reversed), Magician
Like Libra, you have some inner child healing to do. Were you discouraged from trying new things due to financial issues your family suffered as a child? Did this stifle your creativity? I think you need to take a break from trying to create and consume art for right now. Rewatch your favorite childhood movies. Remember now you are an adult. You’re in charge now. You don’t have to do anything you don’t want to do. Everything is up to you. Embrace this power. You’re not a child at anyone’s mercy anymore.
I recommend iolite to help ease your stress and charoite to help clear out any trauma from your energy field.
10 of Wands: overwork, exhausted
2 of Pentacles: balance
Star: wish granted
Someone has to be paying more attention to their body! Your body may be trying to tell you it’s tired these days. Spend more time resting. You have something good going for you right now, and you need to make sure you have the energy to maintain it.
Clarifiers: 8 of Wands (Reversed), 4 of Wands (Reversed), 2 of Wands, Knight of Wands
Something is stressing you out. I have a sneaking suspicion it may be a day job, but it feels more like a hobby to me. Maybe you’re considering leaving your day job and turning your hobby into a business. This is really brave of you, and you need to make sure you’ve covered every loose end. Part of you may be resisting this lifestyle change, so make sure that you’re with yourself every step of the way. The last thing you want to do is convince yourself it’s a good idea. Make sure that you know it’s a good idea. Not to go meta on you, but hear yourself out. Make sure all, if not most, of your doubts and misgivings can and have been resolved by the time you launch this bad boy.
I recommend yellow tiger’s eye for confidence and aquamarine to help you communicate clearly and harmoniously with those around you.
Ace of Pentacles: increase in financial wealth, new job
8 of Wands: dead project, broken things
There is something you need to let go of. Like Sagittarius and Cancer, you are holding yourself back from something good. This has potential and I think it’s scaring you. It feels like a shift in your career is happening and you’re not quite ready for it. There is a subconscious desire to let the opportunity pass you by, but you can’t afford to do that. Look within. Ask yourself why you are scared.
Clarifiers: King of Pentacles, 3 of Pentacles, Magician, 7 of Cups
You might be worried about this career change because you can’t see the future. I have to give you some tough love: you will never see the future crystal clear. I certainly won’t. If this career shift hasn’t happened yet, you may be considering doing something different in May. Remember your power: you don’t have to do this if you don’t want to, but make sure your reasons are valid. This could be good for you. Don’t waste your chance.
I recommend black onyx to help clear your mind and rhodochrosite to help you adjust to lifestyle changes.
3 of Cups: friends, socializing
9 of Swords: anxiety, up late at night
Magician: in control, manifestation
First, I’m surprised to see the Magician so soon after the last pull. It jumped out, so we’re keeping it. Anyways . . .
I think a certain Virgo is either leaving quarantine to make friends or trying to reconnect with acquaintances. This is a big step and I think you’re realizing this as time goes on. If you have social anxiety, be kinder to yourself. Socializing is going to be a bit intimidating for a while, especially since Covid isn’t officially gone. I think you should start small and trade in-person activities for long phone calls.
Clarifiers: Hanged Man, Page of Swords, 10 of Wands, Chariot
You’ve been waiting for a while, and maybe the majority of the planning has been thrown at you. Remember that you can still cancel plans if you’re feeling anxious and that your friends will always be there for you. I think everyone has been impatient lately and it’s showing. Be safe in May. Rushing to do anything usually leads to error or injury.
I recommend yellow tiger’s eye to build your courage and pink sapphire to encourage a sense of peace.
3 of Swords (Reversed): lingering pain
Sun (Reversed): gloomy outlook, depression
Something has been weighing heavily on your heart. I can’t say for sure what it is, but you have been feeling quite down recently. Could it be the imposter syndrome from last month’s pull? The 3 of Swords is reversed, so the feelings are fading a bit, but the reversed Sun feels like “I deserve this.” Maybe consider talking to a friend about how you have been feeling so you can get some perspective.
Clarifiers: 3 of Wands (Reversed), Knight of Pentacles, Justice, The World
If this is regarding the imposter syndrome, there is still more studying to do. However, if it is not, I think you may be going through a rough patch mentally. You should definitely find a friend to talk to, as well as distract yourself with learning something new. Your foundation is rocky right now, which is why you’re feeling lost and unsatisfied. The Sun always says that everything will be okay. Maybe you should do some introspection and look inward. Are there some recent decisions you’ve been reconsidering?
I recommend pink tourmaline to help with any depression (not to replace any medications or therapy) and purple fluorite to help with emotional distress.
Overall Energy for the Collective in May 2021:
A few of the zodiac signs have some inner child healing to do. Some of them will have to decide to change their lives by taking on a new career. I think all of the zodiac signs could benefit from self-reflection and to accept themselves for who they are. I didn’t see any struggles regarding love for other people, but the collective needs to remember to take care of themselves in the present moment as well. Your Future Selves will thank you.
Take care, everyone! See you in June.
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